Elusive Pleasures: Aging with Erroneous Beliefs

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Elusive Pleasures: Aging with Erroneous Beliefs

 

Last week I wrote about sprinkler heads.

Why would anyone stop to read about sprinkler heads?

Because it’s really about pleasure, and adapting to changes that block our pleasure.

Maybe for you, it’s the sound of rain on the roof that triggers a pleasure response. Or perhaps you’re drawn to the beach, where the rhythmic splash of the surf and the caress of warm breezes relaxes your soul. Some prefer the mountains, with the scent of pine, and expansive views. Still others are drawn to the city, where light and movement persist. Wherever you’ve found yourself prone to relax, forget your stressors and relish the moment, I’m writing about that spot. I’m writing about our brains associating sensations (like the sound of the sprinklers) with pleasure.

Then something happens to change the sensation.

  • The sprinkler heads need replacing, and the new ones make a different sound.
  • Construction of a ten-story condominium interrupts your favorite spot at the beach.
  • A stuffy nose blocks you from the aroma of pine trees on your mountain hike.
  • The building across the street hangs a huge neon sign that blocks your view of the city.

And the pleasure is gone.

That’s what I’m writing about! We all relate to pleasure. We want it. We need it. Without it, life is drudgery.

How do we find pleasure once it’s gone?

(That’s why you’re reading it.)

Hang with me, for this five-part series will get you there.

Today, I’m going to share with you a little more in depth about an obstacle I’m facing that is more challenging than changing sprinkler heads. It’s an obstacle that has been steadily crimping my pleasure for several years now, and one that I think many of you can relate to:

Elusive Pleasures: Aging with Erroneous Beliefs

I was going to knock around the tennis ball with my husband well into my 70’s. I was going to be that 80-year old still running the 5-K. I was going to dance in sexy high-heels well into my 90’s. I was going to lift bags of potting soil and bend over to tend the garden perhaps to 100.

Something ordinary and un-interesting cut off those pleasures well before their time: aging. In this aging body, they’ve labeled it many things: fibromyalgia (which I called the boogie monster in this article), arthritis, bone spurs, bulging discs and even a non-bony union of the subtalar joint. (Geez!) Whatever they’ve called it, it’s been one thing after another, and it’s always left me with a choice between:

getting to do the active things I love           or

check feeling good enough to function in daily responsibilities.

I fought it for a while. When my right shoulder hurt all the time, I taught my left arm to swing the racket. Then my left shoulder hurt. With both shoulders, a hip, low back and ankle hurting, I finally left the tennis court.

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Credit senorgifcom

 

 

Eventually, even less strenuous activities like ballroom dance, yoga, biking, walking and gardening produced pain, which crowded out the pleasure.

For many people, this is “just a part of aging.” They don’t talk much about it. They just don’t do as much as they used to do.

Does aging necessarily mean life without pleasure? Is aging a slow process of peeling back the layers of pleasure until, at last, we’re ready to say goodbye to this cruel world?

I stepped back to think on this.

Elusive Pleasures: Aging with Erroneous Beliefs Be sure to read this second in a five-part series designed to help you restore pleasue after losing it! This is not just for the aging, it is for anyone who is experiencing a loss of pleasure!

(Selah)

What was it about that vision (of being the active older person) that gave me pleasure?

Was the pleasure response from running, playing tennis, dancing, yoga, biking, walking and gardening from their associated sensations? Was it from the pounding of my joints on the pavement? Was it from the sweat rolling down my face as I darted side to side across the clay to reach the yellow ball? Was it from seeing the same houses as I biked around our neighborhood day after day? Was it from the gentle breeze on an evening walk, or the impression of the soil between my gloved hands as I planted a new flower in the yard?

Or could that pleasure response also come from something inside? Something I perceived or believed?

When I thought about the pleasure response that came from being an accomplished, active senior, it wasn’t really about the sound, or the scent, or the tactile input. What was it, then?

Could it have been pride of achievement, of being better-than-average?

Hmmm.

I admit I’ve enjoyed that feeling since childhood. As the fourth of six children, affirmation and attention came from being the smart one, the honor roll student and the fastest in relay races. I could recite the alphabet before my school-aged brother when I was two years old. I could out-spell all of my older siblings by the time I was eight. I did algebra from my brother’s 9th grade textbook when I was ten, and, by the time I was thirteen, I could cook, clean and budget better than my mother.

Maybe so, then. Maybe I’ve held an erroneous belief all these years, and didn’t ever notice it.

If aging—and its associated decrease in good sensations—continues this way (as it likely will), then where can pleasure be found, if not from the feeling of being better-than-average?

(It never should have been from feeling better-than-average in the first place, but that is beside the point!)

My experience with aging is just one example of how loss of pleasure can be related not only to a change in physical sensation but also to underlying perceptions or beliefs.

Maybe you had to stop and examine yourself, too. Maybe a challenge you faced persisted to the point that you had to look deeper into yourself to question why you struggled to adapt to your loss. Maybe you didn’t even realize you held erroneous perceptions or beliefs, until you had to stop and examine the matter.

Yet, here we are: a change in sensation, a change in some bodily function, a change in something beyond our control, a change that keeps us from achieving that which we believed would make us feel better– and pleasure eludes us.

What can be done?

How can we get our brains to release that much-needed pleasure response again?

That’s where we’ll pick up next week.

(Oh, yes, you have to wait a week!)

In the meantime, I hope you’ll join this conversation by commenting below (in orange, where its says “Leave a comment.” What changes in sensations, or functions, or other losses seem to rob you of the pleasure response in your brain? What underlying perceptions or beliefs have you identified in between your ears?

-Joan

“You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore.” Psalm 16:11, AMPC

 

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  1. Pingback: Elusive Pleasures: Get the Feeling Back! | Joan T. Warren

  2. Joan I am anxious to read your blogs on this subject as I have been dealing with the same sense of loss in so many areas! Yes, I agree that my abilities to always be actively seeking a new project or adventure have added significantly to my feelings of loss and failure with years on my aging body! I too, have developed many issues from lymphadema in my left leg which causes my leg to swell and is extremely painful to arthritis in my wrist and neck! As Mickey Evans once told me ” what don’t hurt, don’t work!! I couldn’t agree with him more at this stage of my life! It is extremely difficult for once OCD people to let go of things, especially when no one steps up to take them over! Many times I feel lost and very alone in my thoughts of aging! I just lost a very close friend in three months to cancer, and she was one of my angels that came along side me to help and support our ministry! Losses seem to become the new normal for me! Loss of friends, loss of health, loss of memory😢Thanks for putting yourself out there to discuss this vital topic that is so relevant to many at this time in their lives! Take heart to know you are not alone! Anxiously awaiting your next article!

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    • I read your comment with great interest and have thought a lot about what to say in response. First, I would like to say I am sad for your losses, both physical and that of your dear friend. Grieving is no easy matter, and your situation reminds me that in blogging it is easy to trample through where angels fear to tread! I hope that I do you service with this series, and anything I say or write. There are no easy solutions, and certainly anything I might write as a helpful article could easily become trite for someone going through significant hardship. If I can serve you by coming alongside you in your honorable journey, then I have done more than give you a ‘quick and easy three-step solution.’ It would be an honor to be your friend, even if it has to be from a distance as we are online.

      As to the comment you made thanking me for this open discussion, you are welcome!! (It is my pleasure). Sometimes it is difficult to discuss this sort of thing with people near to us, for various reasons. For example, we may be used to being the shoulder for others to cry on, and changing that dynamic could lead further into a sense of loss; loss of our established role in family or social relationships. Or, perhaps we feel others may think we are majoring on the minors. . . think “It’s the big one, Lamont!” (from Sanford and Son, remember that old sitcom?) In this case, an online friend/discussion group can be a great alternative. Here, we can share with a great amount of anonymity and still have meaningful engagements and mutual support.

      I’m glad you joined the discussion and hope you’ll continue. If you ever want to write privately you can also do that at jtwHeart2Heart@yahoo.com.

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  3. Aging is not for the weak. It is often difficult to deal with dimensioning physical abilities and the ever increase in pain. I deal with aging like most people, poorly. I look forward to seeing where you go with your series on this issue.

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    • Al, I appreciate your comments. Though I suspect you underrate yourself in how you’re dealing with aging, I hear you. It is frustrating to have these bodies start to sputter just when we feel like we’ve finally started to get the feel of this life thing!

      I hope that I’ll serve you well in this series. I believe the best outcomes develop as we interact and build upon one another’s experiences and insights. Please keep giving feedback, as your input helps us all. It helps me improve my next post. It helps others who read it to relate and consider what you say in the mix. It helps you, too, to have a forum for your journey!

      Let us know if these ideas are helping. Let us know if they’re not, too.

      Thanks!

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